In my ongoing attempt to improve my outlook on life, I was happy to discover Melyssa’s “Creative Collective” initiative for 2014. What is a Creative Collective? Well, Mel has come up with a list of 23 prompts to inspire creativity among blogosphere inhabitants. These range from creating playlists to taking online classes; none of the tasks are hugely time consuming, and every two weeks we can link up with our latest project! You can read about the “Creative Collective” in more detail here. I think it sounds like great fun, and also a way to keep myself accountable for trying some new things and meeting some new people!
The first prompt for 2014 was to think of a word to focus on in more detail this year. After some thought, I realised that my word would be a relatively simple one; “HAPPY”.
The past few years have been pretty tough. I feel like a blog isn’t a place to be down in the dumps (in part because I don’t want to drag anyone down with me!), but to really be ME here, I suppose there are some things that need sharing. For starters, I’ve been diagnosed with chronic Depression, Anxiety, Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) and possible Chronic Fatigue. Unfortunately, the combination of these has led to the loss of many of my friends, an eating disorder – which I now have under control – and a general lack of a life. PCOS and an ever-changing rotation of strong meds has caused weight gain that I have no control over, I wake up every day exhausted, and I have no energy to do the things I love, let alone the things that I don’t love so much, but that are necessary (ie. working, and the gym).
2013 was basically a write off. I lived off the last of my savings, achieved very little, and just about managed to stabilise my meds. So, looking ahead to 2014, I’m hoping to get a steady part-time job, keep up my charity work, make something of my little side business, get somewhat of a following on my blog… and hopefully save up enough to travel a little at the end of the year. Big dreams! Definitely a big step up from the nothingness that was last year.
So, why ‘happy’? I could’ve chosen ‘persevere’ or ‘positive’ or something, but really, being happy is what it is all about. I want a happy life. I want to live to work, not work to live. I want to banish the negativity that so easily swallows me up, and happiness is a good way to do that.
I’m not going to wake up tomorrow and suddenly be happy. But if i’m feeling gloomy, I’m hoping that remembering my word of the year will encourage me to think happy thoughts. Maybe, along the way, that will become a lasting habit and I’ll see the year out in an overall better place.
To end this somewhat heavy post, I present you with my cheerily drawn word of the year. Forgive the lack of a craftier presentation, but it’s hot as hell in Adelaide this week (46 degrees Celsius – that’s about 115 degrees Fahrenheit to you foreigners!) and my craft/bedroom upstairs is far too hot to work in. So, I was limited to some coloured pens! And my word is now proudly stuck in the front of my blog planner, perfect to keep it front of mind.